Baby don't worry cause now I got your back

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 01:56:56 GMT

Hey mister grumpy gills!

Wed, 27 May 2009 23:16:39 GMT

My last update was sixty-two weeks ago. I deleted my MYSPACE and FACEBOOK account last month. I no longer have any close-friends, I'm not good at keeping friends. I let them go is how i see it. People get caught up in things, boys, school, work, other friends, as do i; and people slip away. I'd still be there for them if they need me, I hope they know that, even if they don't feel the same. So here I sit, watching 90210. Its the new episodes, which are full of hot teacher sex, drugs and donna drama. But Dylan is still a babe. I'm not sure why i'm writing on this thing, i suppose i'm just bored. Colleen is always with Matt doing whatever they do, which is fine, she's keeping busy. I'm happy if she's happy. But there's something with those too, i feel like she lies to me all the time. I'm not sure what she's hiding or why she can't tell me, but i guess its non of my business. Im just a worrier.... but I'm sure it can't be any worse than David's Meth problem.
In other news, I no longer work at forever 21! Although I miss my Job as a visual merchandiser (i was pretty kickass) it is time to move on. plus shannon is a bee-otch. But my vis manager misses the shit out of me and I feel bad everyone else is too RAHTARDED to do anything visual. I am currently working at Nunzio's which makes killer pizza, including a gluten free menu. So you probably should check it out. I only work part-time, but i have two interviews for full-time positions as s pet aide at a kennel place or a youth care worker. So i have to decide if i rather work with pets or people. If they even hire me! They both seem fun and interesting, maybe i can work both. I just feel bad quitting Nunzios so soon, so if anyone needs a part-time job, take my spot! its a nice place, the owners are very down to earth and very organized! i'd stay if I didn't need more hours to fill my lonely life. its in saratoga as well. if anyone actually reads this, let me know.... I'm nervous about just leaving them hanging!
Hmm what else is new! The cutest baby in the world! Sylas Alderic Bellamy. One tiny little boy who has stolen a lot of hearts, already! His mom is pretty much my hero, for being so young and so strong. She'll probably be a better mom than anyone I know. I can't wait for him to be home, so i can see ALL his cute facial expressions.

but any way hannah montana is on and i can't concentrate!

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 18:15:00 GMT

Everytime I die is playing in rochester on my birthday.

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 05:57:08 GMT

& then everything went numb.

I went to Quebec & fell in love.

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 18:52:37 GMT

C'est dans la belle province qu'on trouve les plus beaux sourires.

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 01:42:13 GMT

I'm so happy with everyone in my life.
I know exactly who would be there for me, and ill always be there for them
no matter what fucked up shit happens, we got eachothers backs.
and I dont know many people who can say the same.

corny but I love themmm.

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 14:09:56 GMT

Im sitting at fogg's waiting for my car to be re-oiled. I'm starving and lonely. I really want an egg ham and cheese bagel. yummmm. It's really crappy out today. I want it to be sunny, so we can go on adventures and take pictures. This computer hurts my eyes. go on aim and talk to me. :]

aim expresss blows.
& this gum no longer has flava.

sigh.

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 01:45:14 GMT

my hair is gettting longggg and im supperrr exciitttieddd.
anddd well i want to do something to it
im going to get it done some what like this, Hopefully it wont get too efffed up.
what do youu thinkk?

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 19:55:46 GMT

I can't even explain the thoughts that have been going through my head lately. I don't know where my mind is. I make my life a lot harder than it has to be, because I never accept whats in front of me. I want so much, most of which cost money. lots of money. I get random outbursts of energy and motivation, but they never seem to last long enough. Bleh.
I've been playing my acoustic guitar, I'm still pretty terrible. It's just so hard for me to sit and do something for a certain amount of time. I get way too frustrated and bored, but i'm going to try and make myself play and enjoy it at least once a day. plus she's a fucking beaut.
Today i also dusted off my turbo jam. I did the cardio and ab jam this morning while my bandibundlebaby watched me. I always feel so good after, but getting myself dedicated to do it all the time just doesn't happen. Dedication and commitment is just not in my blood, and I hate it.
Im going to school in the fall, and Im hoping i'll somehow make enough money to get an apartment by summertime. If my car was paid off, id be so happy. i feel no matter how much i pay each month the damn amount doesnt go down enough. Fuck interest. and plus my parents have money in the same loan but im the only own paying.

well i've been swearing a lot lately,
and I sound like a dirty sailor. I've been getting real annoyed easily too.
Ballzz. FOT and PTM is coming up. i'll have to bust a move.

OHHH and Drunken sledding '07.
who wants to join?

EDIT: I also forgot to mention that im going to try and eat healthy again. anddd i want to start drinking more vodka and lesss beer. Lets see how long this will last.

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 21:04:45 GMT

join:www.lost.eu/17fcb

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY KAY!

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 04:06:43 GMT

LOVE YOU. FEEL BETTER!<3

P.s. everyone dont forget kay/dans birthday stravaganza this saterday, bring presents.

Mon, 30 May 2005 01:58:28 GMT

Creeps only

♥

Good grief

Sat, 28 May 2005 19:09:59 GMT

I wanna get inside you.

Reality is truly scaring me

Fri, 27 May 2005 16:25:30 GMT

1. Protein shake
2. Jog to cvs & back
3. Clean room
4. picturezz!
5. Buy silly things at dollar store

123 4 5

Wed, 25 May 2005 03:08:49 GMT

School sucked.
I left an hour early, colleen came and got me.
we went on an adventure.
we got subway and Cvs and visited our grandma also
Gdizzle
she took us into the VOLT!!
we were being silly and i shared my reese's pieces and left.

I went to Josh's to get a movie and a hug
I then ventured off to work.

Today was a good day.
Food running is easy
They fed me quasadillas!
& i now know what a one eared elephant is.
You learn alot at prestwick.

The end.!

Tue, 24 May 2005 02:37:19 GMT

I'm thinking it's a sign
That the freckles in our eyes
Are mirror images
And when we kiss they're perfectly aligned

I bought a bathing suit today.
mixed and matched.

Bought some movies.
took 'how to lose a guy in 10 days' over to Josh's
cause he loves it.
mhm.

Sun, 22 May 2005 01:08:50 GMT

Prom was sweet.
My hair was sweet
My date was sweet
The taped light in our Limmoo<3
was sweet.

I wouldnt wanna spend it with anyone else.
I got to dance with Joelle also.
I miss that biotch.
Everyone looked soo amazing
Im pretty sure everyone got a nice look of my boobies.

uhh we went to Dennys afterwards.
Mm.Mm.Mm.

Josh an I got droped off. I changed and spent the time at his house till 4.
It was nice.

once i got home i passed right the fuck out.
kristina came and got me bright and early.
friken 11:oo.
crazy lady woke me up.
we went to lake george. walked around.i spent all my money and saw boats racing!!!!!!

we went to the mall.
i washed my hands at bath & body works.
i love it.
bought underwears.
some guys were stalking us.
er kristinas a$$.
I got scared. he smelt good though.
He never called. thank goodness.
i hate hanging out with random guys, i dont know and stuff.

we went to downtown toga, walked around.
i went into mudpies and fireflys.cause i hafta. that place is so sweet.

we went to bed bath and beyond. i loveeeee bed bath and beyond.
i cant wait to decorate my house.lol
im so gay.

i spoted a toystore. it wasnt to fancy. but they had alot of dinosaurzzzzzzzzz!
I wanted to buy fallon a stuffed "roar". but i only had 2 bucks.

Now im home, and im flippin bored.
i just rememberd its my parents anniversary.
should i make a card?
maybe il clean...

gah im lazy.

<3

oobladeeoobladaa

Sun, 22 May 2005 00:10:31 GMT

__gorgeous___

WTF

Thu, 19 May 2005 17:10:46 GMT

school is gay.

where is josh?

Thu, 19 May 2005 03:36:50 GMT

I've tried everything I can.
i never thought I'd be able to keep going and still feel the way i do.
After all that has happened nothing has really changed. You're the same person to me you were then.

Tue, 17 May 2005 22:13:51 GMT

hum

half day Monday. Mmm i ♥ halfdays.
got beat up by Brian, friken leslie beater.
Rigney took josh an i to his crib.
His mom was in mucho pain, i felt so bad.
i did his hair. hahhaaha baaaha.
Funky came over
I got hair dye on my shirt.

Colleen came and got me, and i went to work.
work was chaos. I did about 12 people.
an old mans pants fell down in the dinning room.
i had to run into the kitchen cause i couldnt stop laughin.
Him and his sexy man diaper.
"WHAT UP"
I played baseball with lj and Dave with a pen and Tinfoil.
I Got locked in the cooler with olivia. while Mike and Lj turned the lights off.
i couldnt see shit!

Today was gay.
i had detention
Dwi truck
i cashed my checks.
we got a limo for prom
I went to the playground with brian and colleen
girls only club.

im bored.
im gonna cut my moms hair.
and wait for colleen, so we can go to target.

the end.

Sat, 14 May 2005 00:01:04 GMT

but my god, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles

Fri, 13 May 2005 02:05:10 GMT

My new Home.

Wed, 11 May 2005 02:37:43 GMT

so i finished the book i was readign, can you keep a secret?
it was real good, i didnt want it to end.
plus i have another week of restricted with nothing to read.
what shall i do?

School fucking sucked, i was in such a bad mood. i flipped out on colleen, i kinda feel bad.
I had off from work today, didnt do much.
went grocery shoppin with josh, i looove produce?
im a friken awesome shopper.

wooahh.

I came home and watched tv about a flippin huge cruise.
that im sooo gonna go on.
i went on my trampoline until i fell over cause i was so hot.

i ate soup.

i dont wanna go to work tomorrow! DURek isnt even gonna be there.
what
is
a
girl
to
do
?

Im gonna get my nails done on sunday.
so i can scratch people.

Tue, 10 May 2005 02:34:40 GMT